DIS "The War Without, The War Within" thoughts

This show made me cry TWICE tonight. I just love it so much and am so sad there's only one episode left.

Also actual dialogue from tonight, at the scene in the mess hall:
Me: *tears*
Scott: "OH MY GOD This is why Starfleet will never win!!!!!"

Also also, is it terrible that I'm starting to get the same feeling about Black Panther criticism as I am about Discovery criticism? Like, "you say you hate x, but I'm pretty sure it's really about the racism." *wants to be wrong* *honestly doubts it though, sadly*

Anyway, was texting beforehand with a friend who loves the show as much as I do, when I came to the conclusion that in a couple years I NEED to do an edited collection of academic essays on the show, because I Am That Kind of Nerd. I just need to finish, like, a ton of other things first...