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May. 2nd, 2020 02:58 pm I've been grumpy this week: lots of work stress with projects on deadlines, on top of much-lowered bandwidth. I have been so. tired. these last couple weeks, and grey days haven't helped. There's been a couple of pretty days, and I've gone to read outside and such, which has helped, but then the literal clouds come back and I sulk again.
Our state governor extended our shelter-in-place order til May 30, and my uni has sensibly announced that it is waiting to make decisions on what exactly to do in the fall, but in the mean time over the summer we will likely have staggered workflows to maximize social distancing, and people who are immuno-compromised can work from home for the forseeable. (Some of my colleagues are more cynically ready to shriek that the neoliberal university is determined to Kill Us All, and I just wanna be like, "um you got to work from home a full week before I did and your work does not require you to be onsite unlike some people's, so can you shut up now pls?")
My Supernatural Con I was so stoked about also got cancelled, but tickets and such will automatically roll over til next year unless you want refunds. I am mostly happy as otherwise I would have been travelling right as the shelter-in-place ended, and I did not want to be a pilot case for the lift.
I'm also one of those people who is feeling thwarted because I desperately WANT to be creative and write and such right now, but my brain is like "..." and again my energy levels are utterly zonked. But I do the dumb thing and check my social media and watch the colleagues I know perform the hell out of their productivity, and I totally recognize it as performance, but I still feel jealous and tired and depressed. (Obvious answer: Stop looking, and never compare anyway. Besides, I have always lived on My Own Planet, and historically that has worked out rather well for me...)
I hope you all are well. Please stay safe out there!!!
Our state governor extended our shelter-in-place order til May 30, and my uni has sensibly announced that it is waiting to make decisions on what exactly to do in the fall, but in the mean time over the summer we will likely have staggered workflows to maximize social distancing, and people who are immuno-compromised can work from home for the forseeable. (Some of my colleagues are more cynically ready to shriek that the neoliberal university is determined to Kill Us All, and I just wanna be like, "um you got to work from home a full week before I did and your work does not require you to be onsite unlike some people's, so can you shut up now pls?")
My Supernatural Con I was so stoked about also got cancelled, but tickets and such will automatically roll over til next year unless you want refunds. I am mostly happy as otherwise I would have been travelling right as the shelter-in-place ended, and I did not want to be a pilot case for the lift.
I'm also one of those people who is feeling thwarted because I desperately WANT to be creative and write and such right now, but my brain is like "..." and again my energy levels are utterly zonked. But I do the dumb thing and check my social media and watch the colleagues I know perform the hell out of their productivity, and I totally recognize it as performance, but I still feel jealous and tired and depressed. (Obvious answer: Stop looking, and never compare anyway. Besides, I have always lived on My Own Planet, and historically that has worked out rather well for me...)
I hope you all are well. Please stay safe out there!!!
