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So as it happened with the surgery etc the doctor did not get the results we need so I'm recovering for a month and then we'll do it all again, but harder, in August. August was when I was going to take vacation and I had even allowed myself a sliver of optimism and had booked tickets to go see Todd for a week, but now that will all have to be rescheduled. (Good thing I ponied up for traveler's insurance.)
I have a new therapist who is great and who has dealt with the same stuff and she told me to be on the watch and check-in with myself regularly because all the chemicals really affect and heighten emotions. So in addition to being exhausted this is also why I have just been... Super Sad and Super Affectionate and Super Etcetera.
And so I've been both depressed and exhausted. The Tolkien Seminar was this weekend and I was looking forward to it and had it on my calendar and I just. Forgot.
There's also family stuff to navigate. I'm working on it.
Really I've been doing my best to keep my mind occupied, so during work time I am absorbed (boy howdy--and there's shenanigans I just don't have the energy to recap except man are people stupid. Although a dim coworker had not cottoned on to my semi-promotion despite emails and meetings and so when I was explaining some things at the staff weekly she looked confused and asked "Is that real?" No, dear, we are all engaged in an elaborate game of make-believe.)
I have a new therapist who is great and who has dealt with the same stuff and she told me to be on the watch and check-in with myself regularly because all the chemicals really affect and heighten emotions. So in addition to being exhausted this is also why I have just been... Super Sad and Super Affectionate and Super Etcetera.
And so I've been both depressed and exhausted. The Tolkien Seminar was this weekend and I was looking forward to it and had it on my calendar and I just. Forgot.
There's also family stuff to navigate. I'm working on it.
Really I've been doing my best to keep my mind occupied, so during work time I am absorbed (boy howdy--and there's shenanigans I just don't have the energy to recap except man are people stupid. Although a dim coworker had not cottoned on to my semi-promotion despite emails and meetings and so when I was explaining some things at the staff weekly she looked confused and asked "Is that real?" No, dear, we are all engaged in an elaborate game of make-believe.)
