Wishing for a mental reset
May. 30th, 2018 05:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
caitriI have just been in A Mood recently. Low key, though; I try really, really hard not to let out negative feelings into the ether, as I just don't think it's good mojo. But this also means I end up swallowing a lot, and I recognize that that isn't great either, but it's certainly the lesser of two evils.
But I kind of feel like I'm burned out? Which is frustrating, as I have Lots To Do. I took a few days off for real last week when my friend Kate was visiting; we had brunch and watched anime and so on. Scott's off on a business trip this week so I've had my own schedule, which is kind of nice--like yesterday I watched the bonus episodes of Lucifer on tv with my breakfast, because why not, and then I sat down to do reading for my papers. Similarly, I did some reading, the read the newspaper, took the dogs out, did more reading, willing my brain to make connections. But I also just feel tired and unmotivated.
Basically I need to get my energy back and I'm not sure how.
But also this could be health-related; last week I got a call from one of my doctors that my blood levels were unusually high and I should go see another doctor, and I got an appointment to do that next week. Ain't adulting great?
Anyhow, /vague whining. There's a little thunderstorm outside, the rain's falling and the grass is growing, and the air smells clean. So there's that, at least.
But I kind of feel like I'm burned out? Which is frustrating, as I have Lots To Do. I took a few days off for real last week when my friend Kate was visiting; we had brunch and watched anime and so on. Scott's off on a business trip this week so I've had my own schedule, which is kind of nice--like yesterday I watched the bonus episodes of Lucifer on tv with my breakfast, because why not, and then I sat down to do reading for my papers. Similarly, I did some reading, the read the newspaper, took the dogs out, did more reading, willing my brain to make connections. But I also just feel tired and unmotivated.
Basically I need to get my energy back and I'm not sure how.
But also this could be health-related; last week I got a call from one of my doctors that my blood levels were unusually high and I should go see another doctor, and I got an appointment to do that next week. Ain't adulting great?
Anyhow, /vague whining. There's a little thunderstorm outside, the rain's falling and the grass is growing, and the air smells clean. So there's that, at least.
