caitri | Mood Girl

I've been kinda manic today I guess. I cleaned, did errands, some minor decorating around the apartment, exercised, caught up on netflix movies, snacked too much, and just feel argh. And I felt tired and didn't want to do anything and it was so pretty out but couldn't really get inspired to go out besides aforementioned errands--ugh. I kept wanting to call Scott to just, I don't know, not talk, but just to feel something besides upset.

I remember when my Dad died my siblings and I went into distraction overdrive with trips to the mall, to movies, playing board games--stuff I just can't really/don't want to do by myself.

Ostell's funeral was today. As Mom said I would have better closure if I'd been there. As it is I just hope I can get a grip. Grr. Argh.