And this time I really mean it!

[caitri]

Well after inadvertantly upsetting and disappointing a close friend I am re-resolving some stuff. It's the usual stuff. I am a tough lil birdie though. Remember, "that which yields isn't always weak." Fuckin' A.

Let's get this damn week over with, shall we?

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[secret-october.livejournal.com]

Maybe I can speak to you know who, and we can work this out okay?! Friends should not have their other friends fighting, and maybe I can help if you would not mind... Is the situation THAT bad, to loose a friend? Or can you resolve it? I hope so!

--Carolynn

[caitri.livejournal.com]

Did he tell you or are you just a good guesser?

No worries, I did several stupid things and am not going to do them again. I really *am* a tough lil birdie. I got a stern talking to and am all determined and stuff. No worries and thank you for your offer. =-)

I do wonder at what point my life became such a mess though. I mean, really, The Bourne Identity is on and if I have to have issues why can't they be cool ones, preferably with Matt Damon and/or Franka Potente??

[secret-october.livejournal.com]

I am a good guesser... and believe me of people who use to do all kinds of stupid things, just to NOT go there! I messed up half of my life due to stupid things.. now I have a chance to be re- connected with everything again. I am glad that you are going to work things out with your friend... as you NEED all the friends you can get! Beling alone in this world, with NO friends, is kind of sucky! Just take the advice that poeple give you, and please don't do what I did several long years ago..

--Carolynn

[caitri.livejournal.com]

What happened to you if I may ask? (I hope I'm not being nosy?) I am way glad you worked through everything and got re-connected, that is awesome and even heroic to me!

And well see the thing with the stupid things was I thought I was doing the right thing at the time only emphatically not. You know what it's like when you take a step forward, then two steps backward, and now you're trying to go forward again?

I really hope I am on the forward side for good this time. Jim read me the riot act tonight and it was harsh and not fun, but that's a good thing I think, to keep me in line with this mess. I even inadvertantly hurt him in a sore spot I hadn't thought of and now I feel an utter asshole who came close to losing someone and yeah, insert donkey ears on me.

He may be my best amigo ever and is uber-important to me, and I hope he knows it. I do my best to show and tell him though, it's just lately things are all messed-up and I come to him with my problems when he has his own, and I shouldn't do that really.

Yeesh, tomorrow is today and it's another day.

You take care, sweetie, and thanks for trying to help. :)

[secret-october.livejournal.com]

No problem on the helping part.. I just hate it when two poeple are fighting, and it can be easily salved. I'll tell you the story about my life one day, that's another story to tell another day. However, be happy that you have a friend like Jim, as it is very difficult to come by friends like those. (or is it these?) Anyway, I am glad that things are sorting out, and if you need to have him as an ear to talk too, then I would just suggest to have him, do the same. Its tough season to go through right now, and everyone needs their friends in every way...

These are not the words of wisdom, but words of truth..

--Carolynn

[caitri.livejournal.com]

Darn tootin'.

Wise you are, Carolynn Yoda.

[secret-october.livejournal.com]

Now my lady.... are you coming to the party on the 17th? mmmm? (as yoda would say)

[caitri.livejournal.com]

No try there is, only party. %-)

Actually my friend Mike is having a graduation party that night so I can't (sorry). My offer for help still stands if you want, as I am given to understand Jim's going to be all Iron Chef and "must inspect fresh food" and all. As you know, I am an excellent pack animal! :-D

Dunno if you're interested, but the 18th we're going to have a girlie day if you want to come with?