Home, For Now
Jul. 21st, 2019 08:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
caitri Got back from the conference yesterday, and since then, chores and sleep. I worked up such a sleep debt while I was gone, largely as a function of an exceedingly uncomfy dorm mattress--I am officially Too Old For That Shit.
The conference was itself....a thing. I enjoyed it more than I was expecting, and had some good conversations and so on. A LOT of people thanked me for the work I was doing, and how it was so great to see someone enthusiastic and with a love for the material. On the other hand, there are elements of elitism that are such a struggle and that turns me so off. I just felt really ambivalent and frustrated all week, and still do.
I think it's the intellectual equivalent of the "if you don't like the person, why are you friends with them?" thing, only....I do like the material, it's the people I often can't stand. Versus being in fan studies where we all take delight in one another, you know?
Anyhow, I'm home for a week, and then next week is going to be much looked forward to V A C A T I O N . I plan to only read for pleasure, write for pleasure, sleep, loaf about, and generally do nothing. I am so excited!
The conference was itself....a thing. I enjoyed it more than I was expecting, and had some good conversations and so on. A LOT of people thanked me for the work I was doing, and how it was so great to see someone enthusiastic and with a love for the material. On the other hand, there are elements of elitism that are such a struggle and that turns me so off. I just felt really ambivalent and frustrated all week, and still do.
I think it's the intellectual equivalent of the "if you don't like the person, why are you friends with them?" thing, only....I do like the material, it's the people I often can't stand. Versus being in fan studies where we all take delight in one another, you know?
Anyhow, I'm home for a week, and then next week is going to be much looked forward to V A C A T I O N . I plan to only read for pleasure, write for pleasure, sleep, loaf about, and generally do nothing. I am so excited!
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