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In the latest episode of Cait's Covid Fever Dream Theater, it was SDCC highlights of things that do not exist. The two the imaginary fandom of brain were the most excited about were the announcements of the Firefly reboot and the sneak peek of Disney's Hamilton.

Sadly, despite the excitement and the participation of the Jim Henson Company, the Firefly reboot just looked weird. The cast were all newbies and it was hella controversial that there were still no Asian characters, although at this point everyone could speak passable Mandarin. There was a lot of speculation about the political implications of all this.

Meanwhile, Disney's Hamilton looked amazeballs although the trailer was the entirety of the wedding sequence. There was lots of speculation about how LMM was gonna handle putting the whole musical into an 80 minute children's film, and the answer was that the time frame would be almost entirely during his tenure of Treasury Secretary. On the plus side none of the sad bits, on the negative side, wow this was gonna be a film about legislation and marriage. But Disney was going old school and doing real animation for it and LMM had written a whole new Disney musical so we were all stoked af.

... I hate the cough syrup so much but it makes life interesting.

Current Mood: sick

I just remembered last night's dream and need to share it because it was fun! I dreamed that an alien spaceship had been discovered and was being studied--the context was maybe archaeological?? There was no alien around anyhow. It was being studied to figure out how it worked because it resembled a small silver egg with no windows or anything, and the inside was smooth and empty--no controls or anything (also no bathrooms!), and could only comfortably fit one and a maximum of two adult human-sized beings. I was somehow on a team studying it and we were figuring out that it worked by sensing movement / shifts in weight in the interior, and were trying to extrapolate how to guide it. We had gotten as far as lean forward to go forward, lean back to slow down. Someone else on the team realized that the necessities of navigation in space at FTL speeds would require not just wild dexterity but possibly additional limbs, and from there we were trying to extrapolate what the aliens might look like. A+ good dream, thank you, brain.

Current Mood: awake

This afternoon I took a nice nap and dreamed I was writing a paper -- on a typewriter! with that very satisfying snap and ding! of the return! -- comparing The Witcher and Shadow & Bone and Aleksander Wat's My Century. The focus was really on the persecution of minorities and dissidents in all three.

Now I have no desire to write this paper because I have zero confidence I would do it well, but I would really love to read it.

(The not at all surprising conclusion was, I think, that no one with superpowers can ever save you in real life.)

Current Mood: awake

I almost forgot last night's dream! I dreamed that we had a Tolkien Research Collection--which was not things that Tolkien wrote, or that were about Tolkien, but were instead the things he used to research Middle Earth. Primarily artifacts, all of which had purple outlines like epic items in WoW. Anyhow we had a researcher come visit and they looked at the materials, and then they started talking to us and we realized that what they were REALLY researching was the effects of proximity to magic artifacts, and what they REALLY REALLY wanted to know was if any of us were turning evil because we had some rings around. Well one thing we had to explain was that proper archival boxes really minimize the effect of Maia-engineered crafts, but that good librarians naturally could resist the urge to power. (Somehow we knew that Faramir became a librarian in Ithilien after the War.) However not as good librarians were more susceptible and then we had to be super careful how we worded things because of librarian politics.

Current Mood: awake

cw warning: academic anxiety and blather

So I was really, really struck by that article about "burning down the classics" to confront white supremacy which I shared yesterday. Last night I had a dream that was probably related, where I was at a Problematic Conference and gritting my teeth around Problematic Colleagues. (Thanks, subconscious.) The kind of emotional centerpiece to the thing was the anxiety of academic belonging, and how even in the dream I was skirting events and people to go towards those that made me feel welcome and safe, knowing I was missing out on opportunities but also just too damn tired to want to even be in the room with some people.

There is a disciplinary context here, maybe even a couple. All my work is done at intersections, and for a good time I try to explain that the work I do has through-lines of the history of women and publishing. (I'm handy enough at a multitude of other things that they are always willing to buy this on paper, too.) At the same time I'm always are of exactly how much my work doesn't look much like other people's work, and how easily this can be used against me (as well as the ways other things, like my lack of a dick, have been used against me in the past). Also thinking about the Rebecca Solnit piece on credibility that I shared earlier, and the spaces and places where I am accepted as credible vs. where I am not.

And back to the piece on Dan-el Padilla Peralta, which I am so buying his book as we speak, and wondering about the value of burning disciplines down. I saw Amos Kennedy talk last year where he said something about how, for history to be truly equitable, we'd have to burn down all the libraries. And I'm a librarian, so obviously my internal hackles went up even as I thought about *why* my hackles went up. I'm an archivist too, so I know both how bloody hard it is to build collections in a representational way and how even doing so is an uphill battle most of the time. (Historically this translates to "Build more of this--but not like that!!! And also find the money please. Like now.") Annnnnd I'm a bibliographer, so the constant fight to play bibliographic detective and locate the citations and the evidence and the so on and so forth.

Which is all a roundabouts way to say: Hey, I've fought for over a decade to make academia a better place, and it was hard, and sometimes it is so dispiriting that I wonder why I even bother. But then I also think, having clawed my way to where I am, how I can try to make things easier for other people, some day, eventually, hopefully. Maybe. But in the meantime--in the meantime. Woof.

Current Mood: tired

So last night I dreamed that I made a career switch to bookselling, and my area of specialization was vintage porn. (Prolly because Trekkie Monster famously noted in avenue Q that, in volatile markets, porn is the only stable investment.) Anyhow so I did this and hired Chris Pine, who was simultaneously Chris Pine and Steve Trevor from Wonder Woman 1984, fanny pack and all, to be my assistant. He quickly became known in the field as a WWI expert because, you know, he was there. And because he was Chris Pine, he was also weird, which was why he felt we should use Instacart as our online platform, and it WORKED. We made a killing even though it was all local business.

Anyway, happy Sunday!

Current Mood: amused

So I just got up from a nap and had the BEST dream I have ever and may ever have. I dreamed that there was new breed of dog called the mini pug, and as puppies they were the size of hamsters and they maxed out at the size of guinea pigs. It's not clear what happened to cause this in the dream only I do remember a scene of counting them all and we had about sixty of them, and in the dream I told Scott we were just like 101 Dalmations and it was wonderful. (Had we saved them from an evil person who wanted a pug coat???)

Anyway these puppers revered Bilbo as A GOD because he is a thirty-pound direpug with an actual nose, and so they followed him around wherever he went. (Presumably Rey hated this and was jealous. She was still my little dog and followed me everywhere instead.) You know how some schools of fish travel together so close they are like one ginormous fish? The minipugs were like that, and so wherever Bilbo went it was with this undulated mass of the fawn and black fur of the minipugs.

Really the thing I want to know is why we had so many. Were they breeding like tribbles when they ate? Did we just go berserk and kept buying puppies regularly? Did Bilbo and Rey actually rescue them from a local Cruella? WHAT HAPPENED??!!!!

Current Mood: awake

... and I keep reminding myself I DO NOT GET TO WATCH MORE NEXT WEEK.

In case you're wondering: Prime!Lorca was back but acting strangely Mirrory, Burnham and Saru got a message from Tyler BUT NO IDEA WHAT IT WAS ABOUT EXCEPT IT SEEMED BAD, and the cliffy was Stamets pulling Culber out of the mycelial network.

Current Mood: awake

I've been rereading Finn/Poe for comfort recently (an excess of real life), so last night I dreamed I was Finn. I was pinned down by enemy fire and Poe flew in for some dramatic dispersal and rescuing, followed by comfort. It was great. Good job, brain!

Current Mood: amused

Last night I dreamed about Jim Kirk on the Enterprise, except Kirk has most of Chris Pine's characteristics, which meant that often he saved the day through sheer weirdness. In this case the ship was beign attacked by Klingons, but as it turned out, all of the cats and dogs aboard had emergency suits with anti-grav boots, plus tool kits provided by Scotty, so the animals overran the Klingons and freed the humanoid crewmen. Because Kirk felt that the animals were worthy crewmen too. As you do.

Current Mood: amused

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Entries tagged with dreams i have

Cait's Covid Fever Dream Theater

Sciencing in My Dreams

A scholarly dream

A funny Tolkien dream

Academic anxiety and blather

Only in Dreams

Dream: Bilbo the Pug God

I dreamed I was watching the S2 premiere of Discovery...

My Subconscious

Sometimes I have dreams