So that's the end

Had my big meeting at LC, which went well, and then there was the main event of the day, My Last Lunch With Andrew, which is a bit like the Last Supper with Jesus but with Judas Iscariot at the best spot at the table and having a chili-cheeseburger.

Um yeah.

It was unbelievably disappointing. How else to explain being with one of my best friends for what may be the last time ever, a man whom I've more or less been in love with since I was fifteen, and finding we have nothing to say to each other, and what we do say is more or less meaningless?

I think I should be in some way relieved, and maybe I am, but it's just, crap, is that all? A hug, a hotdog, a book, goodbye? Don't I deserve a little more than that?

"That's just what I felt like in grad school." Um, no. As I recall, your best friend did not run off and knock up some chick and get shotgun married, did he?

I gave him the meds back too. Only legit stuff for me from now on. No more marching Christmas kitties hallucinations for me, thanks.

Witness me on the straight and narrow. Well more or less. Following my heart sounds nice, but clearly my heart has shit for brains.

Grr. Argh.

The Breakup Song

Grr, still can't believe American Hi Fi is playing in Athens the night I go home. Figures. In the meantime here's the lyrics to one of my fav songs as it is so apropos.

I can't believe I hung around with you all this time
You drove me crazy with your OCD girl you're out of your mind
I'm counting on UFOs to beam me up I just don't know
How long I can take this shit, I'm over it girl you gotta go

It's over, we're over
Just like in crimson and clover
We're sinking and I'm thinking
How the hell did we get so stupid?
It's the end, ex-girlfriend
I dont care what you think of me
So long, your gone
This is the breakup song!

One more thing before you go would you please give me my records back
My Bloody Valentine, The Pixies, Cheap Trick and Back In Black
You can keep the dog we bought but you can't go near the Standard Bar
Don't hang around, don't call my friends, They won't know who you are!

It's over, we're over
Just like in crimson and clover
We're sinking and I'm thinking
How the hell did we get so stupid?
It's the end, ex-girlfriend
I dont care what you think of me
So long, your gone
This is the breakup song!
So long, your gone
This is the breakup song!

It's over, we're over
Just like in crimson and clover
We're sinking and I'm thinking
How the hell did we get so stupid?
It's the end, ex-girlfriend
I dont care what you think of me
So long, your gone
This is the breakup song!
So long, your gone
This is the breakup song!
So long, your gone
This is the breakup song!
So long, your gone
This is the breakup song!

THIS IS THE BREAKUP SONG!!!